Hmmm i've never count how many pairs of shoes i have? That's why mom always blamed.
Sometimes you can't imaging how people think about you... But just be sure that we're already did the right things no matter what they think. I have pass about 27 year old till now, i have met lots of things and i have change alot in my life if compare when i was young. Still thinking of childhood like again and again, thinking of what was fun and joyfull. I can't really go back to the pass so then i have to make up my life to be fun as i used to be. but how? I have tried so many time but i still not reach what i wish to.
If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong
But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy
I guess i just being older and older from days to days... till now i still can't find who am i. It's seem funny i know but everything seem still in doubt. Time never waiting for someone. Why everyone have to wait? Everyone always hate the words waiting but everyone them self still waiting. It's very hard to say it out from the heart it's like there's a thing to stop. But i hope life is not that bad.
"You've Got A Way"
You've got a way with me
Somehow you got me to believe
In everything that I could be
I've gotta say-you really got a way
You've got a way it seems
You gave me faith to find my dreams
You'll never know just what that means
Can't you see... you got a way with me
It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love
You've got a way with words
You get me smiling even when it hurts
There's no way to measure what your love is worth
I can't believe the way you get through to me
It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love
Oh, how I adore you
Like no one before you
I love you just the way you are
It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love
It's just the way you are
I''m not a good Writer and even listener, i'm not a good speaking nor consoler. But i found myself so hard of everythings, i never confidence on myself, hate to lose and like to win. And i also found that i'm the laziest one of compare since i was young, i was the helpful one in my family around housework and cook... For now i almost forgot all how to cook since i didn't often do. I always wish if i'm active than now on this but still can't. I only like to hang out with friends and shopping beside work, it's my bad habit i knew it :-( All my good habit since i was young are all gone. I'm now change alots of compare to before. I'm the one who people like to tease around even at old work and current one. I sometimes get upset but no one know hehehe. Oop even my belove friend little rath and Any always said that i'm the one who hard show up how my heart was, but i did show them, just sometimes feel tired to talk out all of these complicated things so then just be quiet is better. Sorry guys i sometimes also don't understand about myself. I don't know what am i doing right away.
I told myself not too stress and convince that nothing impossible but convincement is just a convincement. I can't do it at all. All times when problem came i just hate to dealing... In my life i hate the most is to deal a things that i don't like. I often asked myself who am i? Is things really happen for a reason? No no i don't think so.
For the past of 26 year a go the most good memories i did have was since i was in kindergarten, primary school and also in high school. I never wish to be older.. i like childhood life, i always wish if i was young again, i still have more stuffs to do backward. I wish if i could be go back to the past so then things would be better. I don't even wish to be myself sometimes. I hate the words waiting but i've been waiting.
I hate myself when i was lazy and i hate myself when i work hard, but i do love myself. Hmm even hard to understand what i really wish for??? I DON"T KNOW.
Well it's mid night, no it's early morning coz it's 12:53am now... I feel kinda so tired that i have been about one month to stuck working late at province. I was sleepy every nights, but i can't just go to sleep. I don't know why i have to work that hard. Yes harder and harder as everyone always tease me that i'm a busy women. Yes i know it's busy but is it life? Everyone is busy as i do, but not as i did.
I really wish to have times to hang around with all my dear friends, i miss them, i miss mom, dad and everyone. I'm home sick. If talking about home this times i was sleeping so tight. Hmmm How to compare with these kind of situation. Well still have long way to go so i have to be patient till finish this project then i can go back home.
I wish to have such as a good times to visit other countries soon, i had lots of fun even the food not good at all, we're all lost some weight when get back home.
You can change your life (If you wanna)
You can change your clothes (If you wanna)
If you change your mind
Well,that`s the way it goes
But I`m gonna keep your jeans
And your old black hat ('Cause I wanna)
They look good on me
Your never gonna get them back
At least not today,Not today,Not today,
Cause...
If it`s over let it go and,
Come tomorrow it will seem,
So-o Yesterday So-o Yesterday,
I`m just a bird that`s already flown away
Laugh it off
Let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So-o yesterday
So-o yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be oka-ay oka-a-a-ay
You can say you're bored (If you wanna)
You can act real tough (If you wanna)
You could say you're torn
But I've heard enough
Thank you
You've made my mind up for me
When you started to ignore me
Do you see a single tear
It isn't gonna happen here
At least not today,Not today
Not today, 'cause
If it's over let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So-o yesterday
So-o yesterday
I'm just a bird
That's already flown away
Laugh it off
Let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So-o yesterday
So-o yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be oka-ay
If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, What is left to do
How can you hang up,If the line is dead
If you wanna walk, I'm a step ahead
If you're movin' on, I'm already gone
If the light is off, Then it isn't o-on
At least not today,Not today
Not today, 'cause
If it's over let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem So-o yesterday ,So-o yesterday
I'm just a bird
That's already flown away
Laugh it off
Let it go and
When you wake up it will seem So-o yesterday,So-o yesterday
Haven't you heard you're so-o (yesterday)
So-o yesterday
I'm just a bird
That's already flown away
Laugh it off
Let it go and
When you wake up it will seem So-o yesterday,So-o yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay?
b
First of all i really wish all my friend could join, but they can't so i have only one friend which is my co worker would go with me, it's kinda sad trip if anyone look at us, but i don't think it's sad at all since i was fun on the beach with bbq, whoa teaseful. i was enjoyed. but it more joyful if they could join me:-(
